I have taken some time since the last posting to really think about our
options, this blog, and where I want to go from here. There is much more to my
story that, at some point, I think I would like to share. However, right now
Ryan and I are about to celebrate our first wedding anniversary, we are
enjoying our little home and the life we have created.
We have gathered all of the information we need, talked everything over with
all of our immediate family members and closest friends. Our surrogate even came
to town for a visit so we spent a day with her, enjoying her, loving her,
thanking her, and talking things over with her. We really are so lucky to have
a woman like her in our lives because without her offer, I am not sure where we
would turn.
We have not yet decided what we are going to do, and we have some time to
think about it because a few steps need to be taken before we can make a
decision anyway. But she has repeatedly reassured us that she is here for us,
no matter what, and no matter when. I feel like I can breathe. I feel like the
pressure is off to make a decision… to get the ball rolling. We will do that
when the time is right, but it’s out of our control at this moment in time, and
I kind of like it that way.
Through this entire experience, I have learned so much, grown so much, and
fallen even more and more in love with my husband, my family, his family, and
some friends. The support and understanding they have shown, especially after
each blog posting, has been unreal and indescribable. I am grateful for all of
the love and support. It’s been really interesting seeing how people come out
of the woodwork to show support.
I have appreciated every moment, and will continue to. And to those of you
who have been supportive, who have written me messages or posts, who have asked
about new updates and wanted to discuss the situation with me, THANK YOU!!
Thank you for being open, thank you for being there for us, and being
supportive. Thank you for not treating me like a baby-plague—some people have—and
I sooo appreciate those of you who have not even blinked an eye and have just
held us up.
I think the time has come for me to give this blog a break… at least for
now. Things will pick up with us again in the fall, and perhaps then I will
write some more, but for now, I am going to enjoy my summer, my family and
friends, and I am not going to worry or stress about anything baby. Everything
is going to work out! I have 100 percent faith that it will.
When the time comes, we will re-evaluate how public we want it all to be.
This blog has done more for me than I had hoped it could/would, and I am very
proud of myself for doing it. Now it is time to be more private for a while and
go back to a regular life.
Thank you for coming on this journey with us!!!
